The weekend!!!

We are here. Just the place I need this week. There is something restful in the fact that I can slow things up a bit and turn my full attentions to God. I know He is in everything I see. Tonight I will have the youth, full of life and that has become a refreshing to me. Life that seems constantly in motion. Tomorrow we have an all day praise and worship, starting at 8am and running all day. 5, 6 churches-maybe more coming together to celebrate the King Jesus. All in a little area of Vermont most can't find on the map(some can't find Vermont!)

So...I have some high stress appointments today. I know it gets better. I know that the past is past and is nothing more than a boundary marker in my walk, and that tomorrow I will be better off with Jesus than I am today.

Do you look forward to your time with Jesus? Is your day full of expectation and hope? Tomorrow I see my 10 and 11 year old children for the first time in 18 months. There is joy in the work the Lord is doing.

Some of you perhaps look at this and say "look where he was on Monday and Tuesday". You are right. But the world's problems are greater than mine and even if I screw up, if I look to Him I can move on. One of the greatest deterrents to the Word of God is falling into self pity. I started to slide.

Last night as the phone rang at 11:45 I knew God could use me if I would let Him. What you and I do is not contingent on the past or our mistakes, but it is contingent on the blood of Jesus and the cross of Calvary.

Jesus died for my foolish outbursts, my outrageous mistakes-my sinful nature. The cross bore the sins of the world in the form of a man. It is not how we get here that is important, but whether we stay there. God is more interested in where we go from here than how we got here.

I have a great weekend to look forward to. My children, praising the Lord, be one with my brothers and my sisters. Do I have to adjust? Yes. My flesh would rather lie in the mud beating myself for the place I was earlier this week. Am I a better person than I was on those days? No. I am still Lee. I may have learned some things. But I will someday be in that darkness again, that uncertainty, looking out saying, "Hello?? Are you here???"

Deep calling deep. If I want greater faith it must be tried and tested. If I want a more intimate walk, it calls for removal of flesh. Surgery.

Jesus died for you and me. Same cross, same day, same death. I am no greater or lesser than you in my sin. You and I have a fresh start, with the blood applied, each day. Blessings and mercies are NEW each day. So if you screwed up yesterday, there is today. If you already messed up today, get dressed again in the whiteness of royal garb. Ask forgivness, repent, apply the blood and move on with Him.